Denial is powerful. How can we accept that they are not going to give us the love that we have needed since we were little ones? It’s a perspective change. Accepting the love from friends and letting go of the disappointments, letting go of the traditions of childhood, and finding new ways to live.
This year will be another year of solo Christmas. I don’t celebrate the holiday itself, as I do not believe in religion, but there is still a stronghold as to the togetherness that is so big during this time of year. Solstice helps a lot – it brings my favorite people together into a room. I wish Solstice would last the entire week. So I need to think of a way to deal with a day where everyone else has something to do, somewhere to be, someone to be with. It’s the time of year when I have to let go of any preconceived notions, any regrets, any disappointment, and focus forward. There is something out there, there is a road that leads to beauty, there is a life to be led in the coming year that promises much.
What do I want for the coming year? The all too typical answer: Peace. I wish for others what I wish for myself. Strength of heart. Intimacy and closeness. Flow with nature. Long stretches of highway and wide expanses of as much or as little as one wants. The sound of the waves in one’s ear and a smile as broad as the horizon. A kind of relaxation that only comes in those moments where you are following your bliss.